I’m so glad spring is here. The beautiful flowers blooming, the season changes, the gardens to be put up. Oh how wonderful it is. This season sure is a changing season for me for sure. As I walk in this season this year with a new pregnancy I couldn’t help but fear. It wasn’t planned. We didn’t prepare. We were shocked. I couldn’t take it in. It was so overwhelming for me. I remember crying out to God asking for his help because I felt this was a total turn for us. It was very unexpected but yet at the same time it wasn’t.
In October 2017 I remember Him giving me a dream of a baby entering in our family. As we were standing on the beach, it was all 5 of us and the little one at the end holding my youngest ones hand making it a family of 6! I woke up shocked and laughed. I remember telling my husband that morning freaking out because almost the same dream occurred in 2015 with our Lizzy. My husband told me he had a dream also of another one coming.
Motherhood is hard. Its difficult. Its fun. Its challenging. Its down right tiring too. Theres so much to worry about. I began panicking and worrying of how to raise my children the correct way when this world seems to be getting worse and worse. Its such a scare. But as I begin worrying (oh how I know I shouldn’t of but I did) I remember His loving arms wrapping around me reminding me its all going to be okay. Continue to have faith, continue to grow into His Word, continue to pray over and with my children, continue to seek his guidance and wisdom because that my friends is where the parenting instructions are. What good instructions we get from such a good good father. A loving one, one who never stops loving us no matter what. When days seem hard, you know those hard discipline kind of days, remember to turn your face towards his. He will give you peace and comfort during this. Almost all the days I shower I hear little hands banging on the door, voices shouting through the door, “mom, mum, mama, mommmmaaaa….” but how sweet that sound is. I know we may get tired of not having that moment of peace in the shower, I know we may never have that “me” time to ourselves again but what He has shown me in this is, its a season that will soon pass very quickly and its something to enjoy now! We are not promised with our children forever, although oh how I wish we were, but knowing today…. TODAY I can enjoy today even with troubles and all. This verse he gave me was something I needed to reflect on.
“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” -Matthew 6:34
And on my rough mommy days when I fail and the kids are all screaming, because hey it happens sometimes, we apply our essential oils and I pray this verse, the truth he gave me on days like that. “The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.” -Lamentations 3:22-23 Oh how peaceful, how true and loving that verse is. Friend, I don’t have it all together. I fail most days, I cry behind the curtain in the shower where no one sees, I yell at my children when they do something wrong even though they know its wrong, I pray and ask the Lord for strength, for reminders I need, for his correction because some days this momma needs correction on how to parent. There’s no perfect way no perfect parent but knowing who can show us, it surely can turn out better. How glorious it is to know he can help guide us in those rough hard kind of days. Even on the good days I still praise him and ask for his help because without him I can’t do this life. I love how he says “Ask, and it will be given to you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.” Matthew 7:7-8 That truth friend, its truth.
With this new season I felt like I couldn’t do this. Another baby to be added (so joyful exciting and happy but scary too, I panicked) And I was right. I cant do this….. alone, I need my Lord and Savior for help. I need my heavenly father to help me through this new life change experience. Its a true blessing to have another addition and we couldn’t be more excited for this blessing to get here, it was a moment of freaking out on things I don’t have any control over. It can get a little scary walking into the unexpected season, but knowing who holds my future is what matters the most. I know who my creator is, I know his love for me it never fails, and I know his plans for me are for my good not to harm. Friend, if we hang tight to his truths during season changes, during storms, trials and tribulations we have nothing to fear or worry about because He is faithful & wonderful! Speaking the verses out loud gives us peace and comfort.
MY SEASON MAY CHANGE, BUT MY GOD NEVER WILL
With all 3 of my pregnancies I couldn’t “be still” instead I’d put so much on my plate I couldn’t really enjoy my pregnancies. Now with this one, this one is way different. He is teaching me to BE STILL. To rest and soak in his greatness. He is showing me something that is truly beautiful. Being still is hard for me. Very hard. Like I said, I’m use to being on my toes and continually doing something. Learning to be still is a process, but its something I’m enjoying. It truly is something that my heart rejoices over. When I’m still, he fills me up and I can continue throughout the day. How life changing it is to be BE STILL.
I would love for you to do this also if your not already. Get you a calendar if needed. Write important things down that needs to get done. Than clear out unnecessary things thats blocking your rest, your peace, your be still moments with God. Spend 30 minutes every morning with Him alone before waking anyone up, looking at your social media, texts, emails, etc. Open His Word, talk with Him, put on some praise and worship music. Than begin to do things one at a time. What I found helpful was to find unnecessary to do’s that is blocking my time, that is putting extra time extra pressure on my shoulders. I didn’t realize how much “to-do’s” I had that was so not necessary. I even am limiting my social media habits. My relationship with the Lord, my spouse, my children, is more important. I’d rather that grow closer than anything else growing that shouldn’t be. I challenge you to do this friend. Yes, its hard but its so worth it. Especially when we are growing and maturing ourselves by spending time with Him just One on One. Oh how wonderful it is to BE STILL! and sit in His Glorious Presence.